Insight to Childishness

 I watched a therapist talking about childish people. They all have traits of narcissism she said. Then she went on to describe how they don't care about you. And that can't be influenced.

It's all about them, never you.

I so wanted my mother to care about me.

She made me an orphan with a parent.

I was the parent. So she would love me.

Then typically as I moved on in life I did all the usual things when I was overly vulnerable to being manipulated with love (love-bombing). I married them only to be used and dumped and smeared.

I accepted the red flags.

I turned a blind eye to them. 

I wanted the love bombing stage to never stop.

And it did off and on.

Then I got permission to just walk away.

That's better.