On Volunteering
In yoga there is the notion of Karma Yoga, selfless sacrifice. At the same time if you do enough then you burn your past karma, so not so much with the selfless. It’s more of a business deal.
I volunteered for the Huntington’s society, a private fundraising organization, raising money for research into the terminal illness that my common-law wife suffered from. So I was fighting to save her life. For 10 years. Her family and friends didn’t take that into account when they asked me to leave our home as her illness progressed and she went into care. Since they could legally do that I had no choice. They tore down the property and developed it, making a pile, I worked at a transitional needs job and lived in a rental while I sought counseling at the hospital. Situation based depression they called it. The treatment was successful and over time I recovered by accepting the notion that I wasn’t in a relationship I was in a business deal. They were profiting by my romantic notion of loyalty.
Loyalty is largely a myth
Eighty per cent of Huntington’s partners just dispose of the diseased person to a care home and go find a ‘better’ partner.
In the genetic testing for the disease it is usual to find out that many people don’t have the parents they thought they did.
Many people with Huntington’s suicide.
ROMANCE IS LARGELY A MYTH
When her conservative family and friends forced me out the social worker said,”good now you don’t have to watch her die.”
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