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  instead of chasing ghosts to get them to like and accept me… I woke up that morning with a clear memory of Robert Haladay a local character from the restaurant business with severe NPD (narcissist personality disorder). My memory included how I felt when he liked and accepted me and how I felt when he dumped me leaving me in the lurch. He was the consummate manipulator. As a result I woke up this morning seeing the same pattern when my Mom threatened me with a stick with a nail in it. I was 2 years old at the time being traumatized by this woman who had up until then only showed me unconditional care. It was very easy to see the over-value, under-value, dump and smear events; the man was gross and loud, no subtle manipulations at all. So was my Mom a sexual abuse survivor from a remote island, come to think of it. What I thought this morning: what had made me vulnerable and subject to manipulation was clearly I must do well and win the approval of others or else I am no...